I must eat more!!!

Today at spinning, I ALMOST DIED.

Riaan mentioned something about food and I really felt bad - I forget to eat, or when I do eat, it can be my favourite food, but it's a mission to get it into my stomach. Sad, but true...

I've been thinking of quitting - life, Ignite, church - good thing is that I know quitting will not reap any benefits, only disaster!

What does the human body need to survive?

SMiLE

Why am I still at church?

Good question,

I have memorised the programming sequence for adding and removing users, changing access codes, resetting tamper alerts, all for a supa dupa alarm system..
I needed to find out what users' access codes were - I feel I am really trusted at the church...the page with the codes on is gonna burn!!

Today the alarm is up and running - today I opened many doors and pushed loads of buttons..

Last-night..or was it lastnight? - whenever it was, I got so fustrated about my memory. Yes, I can remembre most things if I remember to remember them, but for the other things, I have no recollection of various things..
If there is one thing I know I stuffed up when I attempted suicide, it is my memory - I really doubt that the lady who tested my memory was doing a propper job - she kept playing pc games with me...

As seen with the frequency of these blog entries, I forget easily - time is not an issue, sure it has been an excuse I've used, but time is wasted when I forget what to do..I sometimes feel like an old man in a 24yr old body.
So I'm admitting something that's hard for me to do: I forget most things. Even if I write them down, I'll forget to look in my diary.. or, and this is the worst, I'll want to write something down, but once I get the pen to paper (even if it takes 20 seconds), I totally forget. If you say this happens to you..how often does it happen to you? once a day or more? once a week or more? once a month or more? I cant tell you how often it happens, as just as you guessed it, I forgot. no, I'm kidding - this sort of thing happens most days, and not just once, but many times that day depending on what I do that day.

I even forget to eat - yesterday, I ate breakfast at lunch, supper at supper, and lunch at midnight.
Supa sad, but I've been living this mess without mentioning it - I now know that this mess is preventing me from doing other things. The only way I know how to deal with the situation, is to bring it out in the open. I have wanted to do this many times in the past, but I have forgotten to do so, because I just forget..

FUSTRATING!!!
I have been typing since 16:00 - I'm slow because I forget.
I dont participate because I forget what I'm going to say, or do, or even what they are discussing.
Give me something a robot can do or something that has a manual or is electronic, and I'll excel..anything else and I'll take some time getting around some obstacles and then do my best - but please, if I forget...I FORGET, OK?!!!

Anyway, my Mom called and I must get some grub before I go to cell tonight.
SMiLE
ps. I dont really know why I'm still at church........

I was gonna write about my week until I found...

On The Moon @ weebls-stuff.com

no need to explain further - last time I was on that site, I had a dialup connection...go figure!?!?!

lemme try it again tomorrow.......

About to hit the sack...

Just a quickie...

Cant wait for tomorrow's video - sounds like I'll have a ball and it'll have one scene in which I accept what happens, but if I don't feel comfortable with it, I'll call it off.
Wont say which scene that is, but for the people who know me, yeah...I'm over it!

Saw Jeff again tonight - a bedtime treat...heard all the substitutions - Jeff will be my 'mentor' in the vent world.. and typing of a mentor, I think I had better do my homework or go out to trade centre to buy some toblerone..!?!

Tonight I went to a meeting at the shed. It started off in English, but then um, I barely followed when it went to Afrikaans. Good thing about meetings in Afrikaans, the more I attend, the better my understanding of Afrikaans shall become... and I now know what a vehicle is!! The meeting was about the greenbelt and grass and a need for resources.
And then when we were closing up, we all noticed a groot accident on Garsfontein Road - someone called Fransie to tell her that the road had been closed off in that block..
But what I didnt get was the fact that people were driving extra slow and the side roads were extra busy!

Right, I'm falling asleep and I'll try remember to write a long blog about the two weeks that have passed...soon!

Thursday means The day of Spinning with Riaan ----- Fun all the way up Table Mountain and back to Moreleta Park!!

SMiLE

I smell.....

No, I literally stink. This morning I sprayed on deo, but now, after I
went for counselling, I smell B.O.

Not the greatest, but we're gonna drive to builder's warehouse to buy
wood and while there, I'll buy roll-on deo. Sprays DO NOT work for
me.

Kay, bye..for now!!

Tuesday, the day of none....

This morning I woke up nice and early.
Left home early and then had to get the dog back, but that was easy. Rex is so clever, he'll get in my car even when its just to travel back home - 20m?!!?

I got to the office, handed out devotions, said bye to Jean and Anthony and then set about making a CV to hand into CUM books at Menlyn Retail.
If I ever say that I love computers, it simply means that I love the computers that work 24/7/365/10!

My CV started out at 5 pages long - it was a template from home. I plugged in my flash drive, started MS Word. Began editting the CV. Saved it after 5 minutes, but after 2 minutes Word crashed, followed by explorer and finally XP. I pushed reset. I opened Word, recovered the file..but that caused Word to crash and then, you guessed it, XP.
Again I reset. Started Word and opened the CV fresh. CRASH...........

Laptop from cupboard. Eventually started Word and opened the file. BANG!
Ye...
Copy & Paste. Now it is on the desktop. Tho it took 10 minutes to launch Word.




3 Hours later, I have a printed copy of my CV.
I drive to Builders' Warehouse and want to check the time...... my pocket is empty.
Already time floats away for me - I have no knowledge of time and I forget to ask someone the time... After being put through to 7 different people on the phone and walking around the warehouse for miles, I rate one must go there and look for something YOURSELF...

Then I drove to CUM to hand in my CV. The manager is out and the lady says she will contact me shortly when she got back. my syntax is incorrect.
I left and went back in to append or ammend - oh my day is all crooked...
I forgot to put my contact numbers on the CV and I thought i lost my phone...

Before I went to the bank, I popped into metro to get a stud to fix my favourite pants... good thing I could pay with a coin!

The bank.. I ran all the way from Metro to the bank, and then to Qphoto in Menlyn, but then I walked most of the way - apparently my headband makes me look fishy like a criminal...
According to the sales man, R17 to laminate an A3 sheet of paper. According to Fransie and the person she phoned, R8.50. R1.20 cheaper than at the stationers at Menlyn Retail Park.

I came back to the office hungry as a hungry person. Sat down to lunch and mocca coffee. Attempted to fix the AC adapter that is broken right by the exit-point and beyond - Riaan wants to show me how to fix it before I prise open the box.. *cough*

Today I brought my sketch book and some reading to do when I did switchboard - didnt happen due to louzy computers and time. I dont like the computers that I work on - they run on windoze and I like computers addicted to linux..they just run faster!

Now I guess I can go home - the CD I bought is actually good - a bit crazy and cheesy for the first few tracks, but after that it is great - four more tracks and then its home!!!

I'm hungry again,
SMiLE

Dear Prof Toothbrush

Professor, I must admit that I failed the test quite horribly and due
to the plain fact that I simply do not study, the blame rests on me.
Next time I study, I will make sure that you are served coffee with
loads of cream. It always tastes much better with cream - the cream
takes that distinct coffee taste and modifies it to an almost
drinkable state. If tomorrow I still feel bad about the test, I'll
simply drink black coffee. If I taste tomato juice, I'll do something
unknown to me now..
Have a Good evening,
Sore Gum-OUCh

Intoxicated by God's intricate love

I'm sitting on the edge of my bed typing out this message on my phone
and eating supper between thoughts. This week was a little dreary. I
didnt make or fill in my timesheet and i didnt have to do much this
week. Monday my day went to meetings. Tuesday was the day i went to
town, and this sparked a spiritual battle..i walked up Pretorius
Street... In the afternoon i barely managed to get a web design off
the page. Wednesday. Yes, this was definitely a day in the week. I
only remember going to Mugg n Bean for cell and discovering what
Frankensense and Myre looked like! Thursday i saw Bruce and managed
to get one design done. Friday was special. I got to see how silly i
looked on camera. I'm falling asleep...