A show is a show no matter what...

I have recently learnt that most people of this day and age dont seem to care much about others when it comes to shows. Be they TV shows, movies, stage shows, orchestra performances, there will always be a show where the person in front of you doesnt care about the person behind them.

Let me start at home.
I enjoy watching stupid TV shows, but am quite annoyed when others tell me the show is dumb, stupid, silly, etc WHILE I watch..or better yet, tell me what they think will happen.

Students often get together to go watch a movie together. For the few like me, I paid good money to watch the film and want to hear the dialogue. Laughing is ok, but talking during the movie is like a cell phone going off.. Most of the time it just spoils the movie for those that have not seen the movie.

I love going out to the theatre to see a stage show. They are good and fun, but theatres are designed to be sat in while the performance is on. Like the show I went to last. It was at the Monte Casino - the people in front of me kept moving forward for some unknown reason. No, they didnt even move forward in those suspense scenes like everyone else did. They spoke throughout the performance. Does anyone have respect for the performers? When I pay for a performance, I want to see, hear and experience the performance, not see, hear and experience the people sitting in front of me.

I have total respect for those of us that go to orchestral performances! We sit and listen..I look through opera glasses to watch how the members play their instruments. I sit back in the chair. I respect the ears of others by checking the program so I dont clap where I'm not meant to clap - inbetween movements!

I'm just so glad I had the bringing up I had - learning ettiquette for so many things. SIGH - I wish others would observe others to learn behaviour from them. I include myself in the others, as I havent learnt not to pick my nose in public...

I believe that no matter what show you see, you need to give the same respect to others, irrespective of your age or social standing.

I'm happy again

I have this all kinda worked out now. I am a complex person that even I don't fully understand yet.

It's not like I have a major secret or anything, but I have an issue in life that has been very difficult to understand and to deal with. When I was young, all was bright and spunky. I didnt know what emotions were. I lived out life without the concept of emotion.

As I grew up, I began to understand emotion. I learnt that emotion played a big role in human life. I'm not sure I even understand how it happened, but somehow I started feeding off emotions without even knowing. Know the Sixth Sense? Cole says to the dead guy, "I see dead people."? Well I see others' emotion. It's not as easy to explain as in Cole's case of seeing dead people.

I hate eve's dropping - if that's not how one spells it out in writing, then it looks like I dont like lady Eve's poo...
Seriously now, listening on others' conversations is not my cup of coffee (I know the saying is a cup of tea, but I dont dig tea - though I'll drink it if I have to). I see/feel the emotions in whatever people around me say. It's really confusing at times, but in most cases I smile and then the mommy stares at me as though I was listening in.
Guess I dont like being seen at funerals. If I'm gonna be there, I tend to hide myself on the inside.

This last week people in the office were stressful, grumpy, moody and just neutral.
When Friday came, I was a real confused individual. Birthdays are meant to be joyous celebrations of one's life. By Friday all my happiness had been drained from me. I knew I had to be super glad that I was born 25 years ago, but that's not how I felt.

Hey, not even I fully understand why all this happens. It is just one of those things life throws at you and now I'm learning to cope with it.

I'd like to thank the Ignite guys for Thursday. I saw Speed Racer. In language, school or varsity, poetry has hidden meaning - I cant locate that hidden stuff. In movies, it is the same. I dont care what you thought of the movie, or what you think of what I'm about to type. I saw a meaning in that movie. NEVER GIVE UP.

On Summer Camp 2007, I got a message from God. It was a very personal message that only makes sense now. "You are not alone...don't never give up."
"'All your issues are like the knives that are used to mould you into shape' - They remove all your troubles." They cut away the things in your life that should not be there.

WHAT DOES THIS HAVE TO DO WITH ANYTHING?
i'm not sure, but it makes sense for me at least..!

I thort we were all emo. That there were two sides to emo, but most people tend to sit in the middle. In the middle of self and others.
I wont say more - work it out for yourself. I'm not in the middle, nor am I on the self side....

people go to church. people that dont and look in think that people who do go are happy. if you are a people that think such, all i know is that people are happy if they are with Jesus who they Trust and Obey. i've tried the other way - it doesnt work.
Experience the love. Experience the full power of love when you trust and obey Jesus.

HEY MISTER!
me?
YES YOU. WHAT THE 'ELL?
you know what?
WHAT?!!
i'm happy.


ps. If you think I have a problem, tell me what it is, so we can try sort it out..

senior moment??

er.. cant su, forgot the 20 characters

sigh

Troubleshooting Dirty Windows (GDI32.DLL)

I brought the office PC home to try fix it after a virus, or many I should say, attacked it and brought it to a complete stand-still.

Once I had cleared the virus threat using my linux box and f-prot, I rebooted and windows complained about many files missing - basically rendered the PC useless. It was as though the "bones" were removed..lol.
Having already made a backup prior to killing the [many] virus, I slapped the only service pack I had - sp3 v 3264. (I burned windows disks for a reason...)

Rebooted and then cried cuz I couldnt return the PC working before leaving for Uitenhage.. I left it with a very Blue issue.
STOP: c0000139 {Entry Point Not Found} The procedure entry point GdiGetBitmapBitSize could not be located in the dynamic link library GDI32.dll
 
good thing I run another pc with internet access - I googled GDI32.DLL and visited http://garbledzombie.wordpress.com/2008/06/09/service-pack-3-and-trouble-with-gdi32dll/ followed the instructions, rebooted and then kicked myself for forgetting to umount....DUUUH

so, if I ever need this again, here is my version of things to do:

• visit Trinity Rescue Kit | CPR for your computer  - i have DSL but there's something fishy with the CD drive and I had already downloaded it;
• burn the ISO to CD;
• pop CD in PC and restart;
• press <ENTER> at the bootloader if u impatient with a slow PC;
• my dev was hda1, so "mkdir /hda1";
• "mount /dev/hda1 /hda1";
• "mv /hda1/windows/system32/gdi32.dll /hda1/windows/system32/gdi32.dll.corrupt";
• "mv /hda1/windows/system32/dllcache/gdi32.dll /hda1/windows/system32/dllcache/gdi32.dll.corrupt";
• "cp /hda1/windows/ServicePackFiles/i386/gdi32.dll /hda1/windows/system32/";
• "cp /hda1/windows/ServicePackFiles/i386/gdi32.dll /hda1/windows/system32/dllcache/";
• "umount /hda1";
• "shutdown -r now";
• remove the disk promptly when prompted;
• GRiN as windows boots up

now I know that those steps are already posted on another person's blog, but for the odd person like me, go figure.....